Originally Posted by
romanerin2011 
Hello
I relapsed yesterday after 3 years sober. I've been crying for the last 5 hours about what I've done. When I drink I become someone completely different and make terrible decisions. I have been begging and pleading for Jesus to forgive me but I think he's tired of me. I have a 1 month old baby now and don't know what happened. I got drunk and paid a prostitute. I'm mortified by what I've done the pain in my heart and soul is unbearable. How does one come back from such a terrible fall. I have a wonderful family and now this. Please someone help.
You are human. God doesn't love us because of who we are, He loves us because of who He is. Nothing we can do can change that.
You wouldn't be in such pain if you didn't have a good heart. You are a good person and you can always be better. You will get through this and move forward. Just take it a day at a time.