Romaner - I'm so glad you joined us. This is a great place for encouragement as you take control of your life.
I'm sorry for the pain you're feeling over what happened. Alcohol turned me into someone I didn't even recognize. I drank for many years & did a lot of foolish things. It had once been a fun way to relax, but in the end unpredictable & dangerous things happened. You can reclaim your life. Please keep reading and posting.