Thank you all for you posts. I'm hurt, upset and confused. I try to eat healthy, workout, work hard... I'm pretty straight and narrow but I did dabble in things during my early twenties so I'm no fool. I feel like at a certain age with children people need to do what's in the best I interest of the children however I can understand how life is stressful and that's hard... I get it. All this time thinking about his actions has me stressed and run down .... We will see. Thank you, I appreciate the feedback and being able to vent.