Bunny, you haven't done anything wrong. Nobody is free from sin or anger or negative thoughts... I am a Christian, and not a fluffy one, but I don't want to get too deep in to "Jesus talk" here because I don't want my posts deleted. Lean on the Word of God, that's what you can trust. We can't trust our own feelings to tell us what to do. We simply can't. We also shouldn't rush spiritual maturity or aim for perfection, we will always fall short, no matter how long we work on ourselves. That's why we study and go to church to be ministered to and why we pray, because we need that guidance, always.