Originally Posted by
Ezzedee 
Drugs really do change people and for some reason I keep trying to convince myself he must really like this other girl or he wouldn't have left! But then I have a moment of clarity and see it for what it really is! It's not about me, her or his son it's about the drugs!
I think about this a lot too. I wonder why the heck he chose HER over ME??! I've got so much more to offer him. What is so great about her? And then I think.....it's either that she has no idea about his struggles and addiction (since she lives 5 hours away) OR she is also a druggie and he's just using her for the pills etc.
Either way it's f****d up. I can't hardly stand to think about it. It almost drives me crazy. I hate this disease. I hate what it does to people. I hate how helpless I feel. I hate that I still love him.