Sasha,
You are really going through a tough time. To take a stand for yourself while dealing with shingles!!!!! Wow. Those are so painful.
I know that, speaking for myself, my emotions are so more open and vunerable when I am sick. What a gift for you to be able to leave.
Just think, those scabs will go away. You will get better. Try not to let too much stress get in your life right now. Take good care of yourself.
Al Anon meetings are a great place to meet new people who have been where you are now.
One day at a time
Antreeta