Hi Rupert, I was wondering where you were, I had replied to a previous thread to you about your first day at work. Sorry to hear about the anxiety. When I was drinking I would get those crazy attacks, I am now just over 6 months sober and have not experienced anything like it since. I was looking at your avatar and wondered if you could change it to a clean shaven Edward Norton, just to see a different perspective :-), sorry if that is inappropriate. I am glad you came back and I really do hope you make a plan so you don't have to go through this pain and anxiety anymore. hugs to you