Hi, Ezzedee, and welcome. I am sorry you are in so much pain. I don't have much experience with loved ones who are deep into drugs, but there are many on this site who do. Hopefully, they will have some thoughts for you. In the meantime, please take of yourself and the child who is now part of your life. There are "stickies " at the top of the main menu that contain much information about addiction and the effect on loved ones. Good luck. Peace.