Stbloc

So I've had rough 9 month but started to feel better. Everyone told me I wouldn't recover fully unless I give up drinking. I stop drinking 3 days ago and I feel like my withdrawal is back to square one. My morning anxiety is very high but I start to feel better as the day progresses. I never considered myself to be a heavy drinker as I drank 2-4 drinks a night right at bed time. I never drink in any other social setting or ever feel like a had to have a drink. But come bed time I run to the fridge and run through my nightly ritual. The past month I tapered slowing down to about 3 oz a night and felt good until now. I don't know if my anxiety is the alcohol or just lingering benzo. My guess is the alcohol. How long can I expect to keep feeling like this? I want this nightmare to go away. I almost fel like going back to 2 beers a day but I really want to live a clean life. Been having a few drinks every night for more then a decade and want to be liberated.