Thank you Scott. I have never tried a program to quit, always just told myself I would stop and then of course didn't. Right now, for the first time ever, I've cleaned up my eating and exercising regularly, and was feeling so amazing and proud of myself. Then yesterday turned into a day of drinking. My instincts were to not go out, but then I felt guilty because my friend was begging me to go. I knew what would happen, I'd drink too much and then hate myself today, as I have soooo many other times. It makes me feel so desperate. I feel like all my hard work on my health is down the drain. I feel like I don't deserve to succeed because I've proven myself to be a failure.
How do I begin recovery?? I feel lost.