I know that feeling (ha) that we are "nearing the end" with perimenopause/menopause, and I also have regular thoughts that Im doing this whole life thing wrong and will be relieved when the whole **** show is over. Ha.
It is just a feeling, though, and it passes.
When I was drinking, that type of thinking was predominant in my head. Now I just hold on to the thought of "today, no matter what happens, I will not drink." It is a simple thought but oddly reassuring in a world full of challenge and hurt.
Drinking screws up the lens we use to view the world. The more you drink, the darker everything will seem. I know you know this intellectually -