Thanks Dee for responding. I am really lonely right now and any human connection helps, even over the internet. You are right and I KNOW this. I know that I should put everything on the back burner until I am solidly sober. I need to quit with this language school. I keep saying to myself "you need the money" But I took time off work to go to rehab. I need to think of it like that. I either go back to rehab (thus quitting my work) or I stay home and get my sh*t together. But either way, recovery has to be #1. Not work, not money, nothing.