Sorry things are difficult for you at the moment. You found a soulmate? That is an enviable position to be in. Don't call that cab, though! :-) Maybe you haven't showered because you're trying to sober up and it is hard. Details like showering might seem petty to your recoiling central nervous system for a bit. Now that you mention it though, taking a long hot shower is a great distraction from thinking about taking a cab to the liqour store. So is posting here.