having been in simlier sitations when i sobered up what i did was i thought about it for a sec. Is someong going to show up at my door put a gun to my head and say pay up or we shoot? Nope i started thinking about the relaities of what they would do and realized there not nearly as bad as how i'm mkaing it all out to be. With my work i had simlier anxieties so terrified i'd get fired but then that would jsut scare me all the more with my money issues. Again I thought so what if i do? i'll go live with family or a shelter with my kids it'll suck but hell at least it'll be done i wont have to worry about IF it'll happen anymore it will have finally happened and heck that might be a relief compared to the imaginary BS game i had in my head.
I also started reading some various books like say power of now by eckhart tolle and i started to realize all this stuff i was cooking up in my head was not real it was not what was happing in this moment. I started to realize if what i needed to do whas take a day off to save my sanity screw it i did so etc..
Long story short my issues worked out my worries subsided from reading varous books and so on.
That being said even now i do still have my anxiety issues with work but i just put into practice what i've learned to keep the anxiety at bay as best that i can.
One thing I sa to myself a lot when i start to worry is "does it matter" i mean really life wil go on one way or another things just are what they are etc..
It'll ease up. My advice is if you need time off take time off. if you have to take a break take a break what do you have if you dont have your sanity?
Me with my debt I had a bit more in debt and I quit paying it all. it was like an instean pay raise instantly it was like having a ton of bricks lifted off my shouders it was really liberating. then about 6 months later i worked out debt settlements with all my creditors and have remained debt free since. For me this was the best strategy. I pondered bankruptcy and everything else. I had to realize that this was not and should not be asome kind of emotional decision some kind of freak out fest. it was just a bsuiness transaction people do these things every single day theres laws and rules that protect said folks and so on in these situations. Its not that big of a deal just have to figure out how to navigate it is all.
I hope it eases up some.