lapindenoel.......are you familiar with Adult Children of Alcoholics?
We have a forum for this on SR, also.....
I think you would derive a lot of benefit from that group.....sine you ARE an adult child of an alcoholic..lol.....
You can still post here, also...as well as continue your regular counseling.....
I have no doubt, that this has had a tremendous and global effect on you.......
And, I am so glad that you have the ego strength to look after your own welfare!!
You will not regret it.....