Yes It's Xmas bunny.. it's the first two word that rang in my head when I wrote the username. hihihi It doesn't mean something mysterious.
Thanks a lot for this rational and sweet reply. I mean rational in a good way.. I've heard a lot of irrational things from my parents in my life so I feel like my emotions are swinging easily and I don't know if they are appropriate or not. (always in doubts)
So yes, sometimes a rational, well written and nice answer means a lot.
I will continue this healing path and I need to check myself again and again.. I thought it was only a question of setting my limits but it's also checking in myself to see the effect he can still create in my mind and emotions.
He called me again tonight, left a message and called back later ... when he call a second time that's never a good sign, it means he wants to be confirmed/heard/validated and that means drinking. In the second message he was slurring.. my guess was good.