I have felt like that often. It's the curse of having an unfiltered mouth, delivering the messages that everyone is thinking but would never dare to say. Quick to snark a comeback, quick to accuse, harsh words flying in fast fury. It's a terrible feeling to know someone has pushed you to that brink on purpose and can now hold your own behavior over your head when they were in the wrong first or more often.
If you try hard enough, it's a simple matter of habit changing. Look how strong you already are, your path is beginning to organize itself and clear its own way. You get to choose where it goes and how you get there. Therapy helps. Behavioral therapy helps. You've got this.
And in the meantime, myself and all the other loudmouths are here to help along the way
