Itchy, I get what you are saying about never drinking again. This last time drinking and then quitting sealed it for me. It was such a bear to stop that I won't risk it again. The funny thing is that I still have 10 tablets of the med I temporarily took 1 hour before a glass of wine. When I did that, no buzz at all. I know exactly what would happen if I started again and have no interest in going there ever again. Those 10 pills are my final fail-safe and knowing I have them makes it paradoxically easier to not pick up.