I had to accept that there will be some discomfort, and get through the awkward "firsts." And also remind myself to be honest - at the end for me there was a lot to be unhappy about regarding my alcohol abuse. It had long stopped making things fun and had wrecked many an evening and damaged friendships and my self-esteem. I'm guessing the romantic viewpoint does not encompass the reality of what alcohol was for you at the end.....