One thought...It's tough to get sober while you still have a marriage, home, and job...and it's infinitely harder without health, loving relationships and an income. It's great that you had a month without drinking! You did good, and you can do it again! Maybe try playing through to yourself the pros and cons of continuing alcoholism. There are plenty of reasons to stay sober today, and the cons are overwhelmingly negative. Fridays can be particularly hard, so, if you like, stick with SR this weekend and join in the conversations.