Starting to spin out
hi all... I was doing well for a month sober, was using anxiety meds to cope with everything and they were helping a lot! I felt great! when I ran out and couldn't get a refill for ten days... that's when things started to spin out. I now have my prescription back, but don't feel the same. I keep having slip ups every few days and it's making me feel like a complete loser. my husband is making me feel even worse over. I feel he's basically at the point of giving up on me and I can barely blame him at this point. even told me the last time that if I was content to kill myself with booze, he wasn't going to stop me anymore.
wondering how I did so well the first month and have since ruined all the amazing progress I made, with little hope in sight. maybe I need more help than I realized, but rehab seems incredibly extreme and I also doubt I could even take the time off work.
sorry to vent all these frustrations, I'm just incredibly disappointed in myself.