I am alone now, too, Susie. My husband died last October. I don't believe I will ever get married again or be in any sort of romantic relationship again. I have been alone in my life before, but somehow...it feels different this time. Maybe because I am older.
So I'm learning to deal with "alone" in a different way now, too. I am fortunate in one regard...I have great friends through my church and very kind neighbors to keep an eye out and include me in some of their activities.
So how about you, Susie? Do you have interests outside of work? Do you read? Enjoy music? Paint or sculpt? Garden? Scrapbook? What do you enjoy in your off-work hours? If you have never thought about it, perhaps there is something that peaks your interest and perhaps there is a club or group that meets regularly around that interest. That may be a great way to meet new and positive people in your life. Once my work allows, it is certainly something I'm going to pursue!!
You are worth investing time and effort into yourself!!