I appreciate the responses - I agree I need to find people to share my time with who like being around me . I guess the chances I gave him were to be a nice person treat me with respect not be a raging alcoholic. I don't know - obviously I'm wasting my time and maybe god willing I will figure it out one day. I am trying I am trying to figure it out - I have a hard time luving myself apparently - if my friend told me this stuff I would tell them to run . I need to be my own friend. I appreciate you all .
