Suzie - Why are you not make a move to establish a social network?
I see in this writing you are dependent on him, seemingly ONLY him for contact. This is very, very bad. The ONE person you seem to have regular contact with is the same person that has caused you tremendous hurt.
Please remember this saying:
Those who hurt us, will NOT heal us.
Why don't we discuss what's going on with you socially and see if we can come up with some ideas to expand that.