Originally Posted by
sqbiz214 
I don't crave alcohol and usually buy it for the weekend. Most weekends are fine. In looking back, sometimes I get upset over stupid or nonexistent slights and I go get a long guzzle to "calm down." But without my permission, my mind blanks out and I drink even more then become a horrible mean nasty person to the only man who has ever loved me. I can't lose him and I don't need to drink physically. It's emotional for me, so I need to learn how to deal with the negativity inside me.
have you considered it's the alcohol causing the negativity?
Even in the times when I wasn't getting drunk, my alcohol use was making my view of the word very black.
I stopped drinking and rediscovered the real me
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