Thank you to everyone for all the kind words and advice - I've found out where my local meetings are and will attend one this week - I just don't want to leave the house if I'm honest today.
Had a talk with my other half and apologised for my behaviour last night - I was a total idiot as presumed earlier. I've made it clear I want to give up drinking because of the problems I cause when I'm drunk, I got the words deja vu when i offered my apology but that's a fair comment
I'm sure I will feel a bit better tomorrow when I'm not hungover - that is one positive thought I've had today is I won't miss feeling rough!
Going to focus on getting through today and try my best to build he bridges at home