Originally Posted by
tomsteve 
i can really relate to this. i didnt like one dam thing about me when i was lookin at me. thats where my sponsor stepped in. ill share what he said: - quit kikin yourself in the ass. your not a bad man, just a sick man. a bad man wouldnt feel like crap lookin at what theyve done.pray on it. - good- youre lookin at your past. youre workin on the causes and conditions. youre working to change you. youre not that man even today, so stop kikin yourself. pray on it. - youre not a bad man gettin good. youre a sick man gettin well.quit kikin yourself in the ass.pray on it. - tom, youre kikin yourself in the ass again. time to back up a few steps.pray on it - tom, quit kikin yourself in the ass. thats what you used to be like. youre not that man even today and youre workin at getting further away from him.pray on it. notice the 2 themes there?
Love it tom, as always fantastic advice from you and pretty much what my sponsor has been saying to me, especially through step 4. The self awareness I have realised from doing this step is absolutely phenomenal and my sponsor set a 2 week timescale so that I didn't linger in remorse and regret.
I think it is important to look at our actions and behaviour whilst drinking and to truly own up to our part, humbly ask for forgiveness, make amends and then move on into a better and brighter future, leaving the past behind.
Early recovery is so very hard but way better than no recovery at all.
Blessings. Elle