Suze - I SO understand the being stuck. A dear friend of mine calls it "staying in your uncomfortable comfort zone" and that has stuck with me.
I can KNOW I need to move on, but for whatever reason, I tend to stay where I am. It's taken a long time and I'm not all fixed, but I am better about stepping out of that zone.
You are doing the same. You feel the fear, but you keep moving forward. You reached out when you needed support. You are coming to the US!!
You have made some major steps out of your comfort level and I'm so very proud of you.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy