Something scary just happened, much like what set me off on the bender. It's a long story, but my misogynistic ex has gotten a bench warrant against me for not showing up for a civil case court date I knew nothing about. So cops showed up last week -- but now I think it wasn't for me.
Just now, I heard someone say my name outside my window. I have a fairly unusual name, so it can't be a coincidence. Anyway, now I'm shaking like a leaf, but I'm not drinking. I'm going to take a looooong shower. It could be a process server, very few people know where I live. The voice came right as I walked into the bedroom.
Anyway, shower, not drink. This is a big improvement in my behavior.