I usually, at least for the last several years, just drank at home, didn't leave the house so much when drunk. I didn't get violent at home but I would get vicious verbally with my wife. Once I chased my mother in law around the house, though, that was out of character. I think I was trying to chase her away and she wanted to call the cops on me. I used to wake up in the morning and anxiously ask my wife if 'everything was ok' from the night before, because I didn't remember much. I have a lot of gaps in my memory which even makes it difficult to cohesively describe situations and events. Memory of my sons very early life is fragmented, for instance. Like pictures, or snapshots it pops up in my mind.