Getting and staying sober means you'll have to deal with aspects of yourself that you might have ignored before.
It's one of the beautiful things about sobriety. You can now change yourself into what you desire to be. If you think you're too mean, angry, tense, or whatever, that just means it's time to form new habits to become kinder, more forgiving and laid back. BUT with a clear head, which you'll never have while drinking.
Congrats on five days
. Keep going, and hope you come back here often