Hi Flower,
I can completely understand what you are saying, you can see lots of us can.
Not sure this will help, but end of July I decided to quit. For good. Week one went by, then halfway through week 2 I thought about three events this year where drinking would make perfect sense: a music festival, a wedding and Christmas. At that point I decided to be a "big occasions drinker". Now, three days before the festival, since I knew I would be drinking then, I robotically walked into a shop and got a couple of drinks for the way home. At home I had another. Then it clicked.
Point is: your AV will use whatever it can to convince you drinking is worthwhile in some shape or form, and once that happens that's it, we're back to old habits sooner or later (otherwise you would have waited to drink a glass of champagne at a wedding instead of randomly driving to the store).
It is by no means easy to resist your AV, but next time this happens check in here before deciding to drink, it really helps to put things in perspective.
I know you got it in you to do this and we're right there with you.
P