The other weird thing is my feelings dont have much to do with his recovery. Or thinking he needs meetings or a sponsor to recover. (I am hopeful he begins therapy once he can get on a drs calendar).
It really feels like its more about making him feel he is not in control of his own choices. Of course after what happened I do see myself making more little notes of anything that makes me feel taken for granted, ignored, minimized, or basically anything negative. I think its my emotions doing this too.
I will try to share this with the therapist and see if she thinks I'm certifiably crazy. I already dread my spot because she was encouraging we spend some time apart and thought inpatient rehab would do that for us. And she already was hard on me as to why I would continue marital relations until he works on his issues.
She asks tough questions and pushes me to think of my feelings. I need to see her more I guess.