Hello Flower, I wholeheartedly agree with the previous posters. You are still young with a fabulous opportunity to stop now and then live a more fulfilling life. I wish I had the strength to make your post decades ago, and then acted on the advice you've received. Believe me, the years fly by so fast and this alcohol issue is progressive, it will only get worse,. But it doesn't have to for you, you've recognised the problem and therefore you can take action!