Originally Posted by
Dee74 
My advice is don't underestimate the power of alcohol to colour your perception or world view.
At the very least with alcohol out of the way and perhaps some other help, you'll be able to get to grips with the other problems you have?
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Thanks Dee. I'm not giving up yet. Feel much better since posting this. Time will tell if I succeed or if I end up "falling off the wagon" as so often happens in recovery. But I'm definitely going to try. You are right there is NO way at ALL I am going to be able to come to grips with my problems if I drink. I just have to fine the will, the motivation.