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I posted on here for the first time today - in the newcomer's section. This is my first day sober since hitting rock bottom. I feel a little better since I first signed up this morning. I don't feel "sober," though, because I'm really just trying to get through a physical and emotional hangover. And the shame. So much shame.

I guess I don't really know what to do next. A couple of people mentioned AA - trying to do 90 in 90... Here's my thing with AA: I've already thought about trying it. I look up the meetings and sometimes actually drive there. But I can never bring myself to walk inside. I make up the most ridiculous excuses about why I have to leave.

Something's gotta give, though. I can't do this alone -- I've been learning that the hard way. I'm just so ashamed. :|