Thanks everyone for your comments. I have no false hope with us breaking up & him moving out that he will get help for his drinking addiction. I know he is choosing alcohol over everything, but it does not change the fact that I care about him & I spent four years of my life with him.
On one hand, I am sad & feel very empty now that he moved out. On the other hand, it is a huge relief not to stress about if he stopped at a bar, or how drunk he will get tonight & is he going to get violent, or start doing things to intentionally hurt me.
I struggled during our entire relationship trying to understand how this man who constantly claimed his undying love for me, could be so lacking when it came to true intimacy. It wasn't until when we just broke up, I started researching articles on how to deal with breaking up and emotionally distancing my self from him & nothing seemed to click....until I researched specifically on how to deal with breaking up with an alcoholic, & BAM, I found so many articles that told my life story for the past 4 years.
The reason I am so concerned about his lack of emotion is I feel like he is just masking it, & it is going to hit him very hard, when I do eventually move on with someone else. I care very much about this man, & do not want to see anything bad happen to him, but that is completely out of my control. Thanks for listening.