Originally Posted by
MrPL 
I want to be in a place where my head is clear, my body is healthy and I can enjoy things for what they are, and that's always the thought when the day begins, but somehow this thought changes when I leave work. Sometimes I can stop myself, most times not, and this is starting to get to me, which makes me want to drink even more.
I could have written that myself. I had a very similar experience. I can't tell you how many days started with me dumping all my booze down the sink and ended with me in a drunken stupor.
The days I didn't drink were spent with this battle in my head no one else could hear. One side arguing that
I need to stop drinking, the other side arguing
just one more day... just a few... you can drink a little...just be more careful, etc. I thought I was losing my mind.
Turns out I was addicted to alcohol, and that battle in my head space was a byproduct of that addiction.
I found a better way. You can, too.
Welcome to the fight of your life. Best of Luck on Your Journey.
