Welcome to SR!
I m scared something heavy will have to happen for me to take this seriously, like me getting very ill, my wife leaving me, screwing up at work or disappointing my kids, and for the first time I can see very early signs of some of these things happening.
If you are an alcoholic, all of these things could happen along with a whole bunch of things you haven't mentioned.
Quitting an addiction of many years is tough, especially if you try to do it on your own. Stick around this place and you will learn a lot about how to get, and stay, sober.