welcome,FabRec.
Surely stopping drinking could be a good starting point but it seems to me that I should make a sort of revolution of myself in order to be this possible for a long time.
yes, it could be a good starting point.
it
is a good starting point.
your sentence above reminds me of what is in AA sometimes called a "psychic change" ( came from an observation by Dr. Carl Jung), speaking about what is required for long-term sobriety.
not being able to stop drinking and not being able to stop returning to it was what finally broke through to me on a deep level in the form of "OMG i am a drunk!"
total acceptance of that fact was the turnaround that enabled me to stop.
after that, the slow revolution
the slow "revolution of myself" is what has allowed me to stay sober ongoing for quite a while now.
reaching out like you're doing here and getting really engaged with "recovery stuff" on a daily basis was more than helpful; doubt i could have done it without that.
stick around.