Nobody said life was easy but it's certainly easier without the problems associated with abusive drinking.
I've never forgotten where my life was the first time I entered the rooms of AA. The night before staggering drunk up the stairs to my new apartment wondering how long it would be before I'd fall down them.
No, I prefer not to go back there. Often members talk about picking up right where they left off. For me I'm not sure if it would be right away but the problems would return. The only question is when because I don't know much in life but I do know I can't drink socially. I played the drink out.
I have a drink I simply can't gage when enough is enough. I was never an abusive or ugly drunk. I just never knew when I'd across the line into a blackout.
I never set out to fall down a flight of stairs. To get stitched up or to pass out while cooking but it happened and more than once.
No, thanks. I think it's best that I just stay away from that first drink.