Thanks guys. I'm feeling better already just from reading your responses.
My sobriety is totally up to me and I'm so glad I made this decision. Honestly best decision of my life. He has said things like "this isn't who I married"... But again, he has seen me at my worse... Does he want me to be that person? I doubt it.
He doesn't have a drinking problem. He might over drink sometimes but can honestly take it or leave it. I really liked what some of you said about me not expecting him to understand since he is a normie... I am angry at him for asking me to drink with hi because that's not real support. His denial is very frustrating. I'm getting my phone out and recording him in secret next time so I can replay it to him.
Is that wrong?
I need the Serenity Prayer times ten!!!
Thank you guys for listening. I have nobody else to talk to about this or support in my real life. This means more that you can ever imagine. I'm tearing up just writing this.