[QUOTE=fini;6069812]no problem, fripfrop.
in fact, "choice" is what i was grappling with for years for years, and still get reactionary and insert my stuff into threads in response to others when there is no need nor cause for it.
my response to you was self-centered, i later realized.
Mxdad, please excuse the excursion.
No worries
Crap im having a bad day
I dont have any family close enough to even share this with
My brother shot and killed my mom and dad 3 years ago and all i even have left are her sister and parents and this isnt a topic im comfortable talking to with them
They know shes an alcoholic and gone to rehab (they just found out in the last month-i told them after the 1st night she didn't come home)
And her sister actually was there when she agreed to go to rehab as i told my wife i was not coming home and that she needed to fix things with her family and kids which i was no longer a part of
Trying to stay busy to keep my mind busy but its not working out to good