My therapist says if you drink you drink. I have heard others say, even on this board, go ahead and drink if you want to drink. You simply get to a point that you want to be drunk more than you want to be sober. I'm not looking for sympathy, or using it like a threat or something. The compulsion and obsession to drink just will not leave me. And yes, I ask God to relieve me of the desire. It is such a struggle and I know it is truly a life or death decision. That is the insanity of it all.