sorry
I'm sorry that I am such a bummer all full of gloom and doom. I just can't straighten out my personal problems. Things have gone too far. I just want to escape. I sometimes wonder if it is mental illness or alcoholism or both. Things could have easily been so much better if I had addressed my responsibilities. I'm a loser and a failure. So full of fear, depression and self pity. Why won't I just do what needs to be done.
I keep coming here and dropping off my crap. You guys have been very kind. I wish everything would just go away....