I am so sorry whats happening to your son and i was alot like that when i was younger without the methadone, i had friends die in front of me and i still loved getting blacked out everyday, what changed was the damage i was causing everyone in my path and realized "hey wait, why would i want to be blacked out and destroying relationships with anything that walked into my path and thats what made me decide to change and not be a walking amnesia machine" I have a important question, whats the name of the low income program is that cheap? Me and my wife are expecting a child but we live in So Cal and can't afford it and we have been clean but have been getting no help from anyone so we've been thinking about moving.