CJ
I'm glad you're starting to feel better.
But that concerns me.
I obviously don't you know you personally, but it sounds like you've been through this drill before (I.e withdrawals). My guess is that you nursed yourself back to feeling "normal" and then, Bam! You start using again.
I'm sending you this message now as a wake call to take action and start recovering now. Because I fear that if you don't, you'll end up right back to where you are now. And how many more cycles do you have in you?
Sending you all my support and best wishes for taking the next step out of the madness.