I hope you can stop drinking permanently Jimmy, and I thank you for sharing. Stories like that keep guys like me from drinking.
This is just my opinion, but when we go on a horrible bender like that we permanently change our brain/body physiology and we can never drink normally again. I know that towards the end of my drinking, every time I drank whether it was a "normal" amount or a lot, I would suffer. No hangovers, but the shakes, no sleep, anxiety and impending doom were more than I could handle.
Anyway, we all support you 100%. Post daily, even if its just to say you had a good poop in the morning. it helps.