Everyone had great stuff to say so far, and how you feel is normal for where you are.
My sponsor and I had a discussion one day as I kept using the words "enjoyment" and "excitement" interchangeably. They don't mean the same thing. I was complaining that I wasn't finding this "living and enjoying life without the use of drugs" we talk about in NA, but I kept saying that nothing was really exciting to me.
ScottfromWI hit the nail on the head in the last paragraph. - It's taken me a while to figure this out. Every once in a while I find myself "bored" and realize that I am craving a thrill rather than fulfillment.