LJ, I totally understand. About a month ago I put out a post that I've mentally moved on, and I have. We've been married for almost 12 years, and she has changed so much since then, in ways I don;t like. I also have changed.
AW is a great mom during the day, and cares deeply for DS. But once the wine glass hits her lips before dinner, she stops being able to fulfill the role of a responsible parent, and I hate it and don't understand it.
The lies, the betrayal, the empty promises, the exaggerations, the denials, blameshifting - everything. It's just too much. I just want out.
That's why I'm working on me, and giving extra love and attention to DS, so when it's time for the next move, DS and I are ready. Well, I'll be ready.